sometimes i smile & act like nothings wrong, it's called putting shit aside & acting strong. ♥

so i have a youtube channel...it's
www.youtube.com/fashionislove96
 
i just started out but i really want a lot of subscribers, feedback (only nice) & such!! so if you're interested in fashion & beauty vidoes check it out, subscribe & leave requests! okay thanks!!

boredd, so here's a survey & blogish thing.
 
omgg, guys annoy me so much. so my ex boyfriends friend texted me earlier that my ex boyfriend wanted me back & he was under peer pressure or something? then he was like sorry i wasnt supposed to send that nevermind.
i was like WTF LEAVE ME ALONE. soo annoying. & it's been bothering me ever since. like hello, i'm trying to get over him, stop bringing him up. i'm fine until somebody brings him up or i see him or something. :p oh well it's getting better, i'm not as much of a mess i was the first couple days. improvement!!!! :D
 
A
-Available: yeah...
-Age: 14
-Annoyances: the stupid things some guys do, mean people, jerks, & more.
-Animal: i like mooses!

B
-Birthday: december 10th
-Best feeling in the world: happiness, love
-Blind or deaf: well i'm not either...but if i had to pick one...ahh idk. O.o
-Best Weather: warmm. but i also love when it's cold.
-Been in Love: mmmhmm.
-Been on stage: totess
-Believe in magic?: not like pulling a rabbit out of a hat, but i belive in the magic of fate, love & karma.
-Believe in Santa: nott anymore.

C
- Candy: chocolate!
- Color: pink & black
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate!
- Chinese/Mexican Food: chinease
- Cake or pie: cake
- Continent to visit: Europe!
- Cheese: yumm.
 
D
- Day or Night: both!
- Dancing in the rain: lovee.
 
E
- Eyes: hazell
- Everyone's got: a story to tell
- Ever failed a class?: nopee
 
F
- First thoughts waking up: a lot of thoughts at once.
- Food: chocolate
 
G
- Greatest Fear: yeah well it's already kinda come true. my boyfriend dumped me for another girl when he said he wouldn't. but in the big look at life that's really nothing...so whatever. his loss. :/ so my fear is all my friends & family dying or leaving me alone.
- Goals: skate for gold blade brigade,live my life!
 
P
- Pepsi/Coke: neither
- Perfect Pizza: imos!
- Piercings: ears
 
Q
Quick! Do you dream about a certain boy: well my friends boyfriend appered in my dreams the other night..it was really weird. he's annoying. :p also my ex appears sometimes still. ugh.
 
R
- Reason to cry: how bout' your boyfriend that you loved a lot & thought would never hurt you dumps you for another girl that doesn't even like him back (yet) & you also lost your bestfriend because he wasn't just your boyfriend he was your bestfriend. yeah, that's a reson to cry in my opinion. whatever. a boy isn't worth your tears, & the right one won't make you cry.
- Reality T.V: it's kinda weird.
- Radio Station: z1O77 & 98.1
- Roll your tongue in a circle: kinda
- Ring size: 6? idk.
 
S
- Song: taylor swift is amazing!
- Shoe size: 6-7
- Salad Dressing: ehh i don't really like salad acually.
- Sushi: nope.
- Skinny dipped?:noopee
- Shower?: of course i shower.
- Strawberries or Blueberries: i don't really like either.
- Sport: figure skater
 
T
- Tattoos?: nopee.
- Time for bed: whenever i feel like going to sleep.
- Thunderstorms: they are awesome.
 
U
- Unpredictable: i'm unpredictable i guess.
- Vacation spot(s): france! or a beach.
- Very?: i'm very confused. mmhmm haha
 
W
- Weakness: my own unhappiness.
- Worst feeling: heartbroken, used, lonely.
- Worst Weather?: too hot outside.
 
X
- X-Rays: i've had one beforee.
- Year it is now: 2011
- Yellow: is a color?
 
Z
- Zoo animal: theres this cute little fox at my town zoo, it's really cute.

but i watched a l l of it [fade].
 
i loveee crop tops! i got my first crop top the other day & i am in love with it! i want to get moree, which i might do today. i'm gardening & shopping i thinkk. i wish i could go to the pool but i can'tt. :( sad times. haha oh well i get to go swimming next weekend at my friends house so it's all good.
 

so glad it's summer! <3

I GOT THAT SINGLE GIRL SWAG.
& i miss him tons.
i miss my bestfriendd. </3
it suckss.
it's okay though, i'm soo glad i got to meet him & got to have our relationship. it was awesome. i just miss him. we're still going to be friends, but of course it won't be the same. he likes another girl now i heard from his friends. i hope she relizes how luckyyy she is. i hope he gets everything he deserves in life. i wish the best for him. i'll see him in a couple months at the rink. i hope i can say hi & maybe we can have small talk. or just smile & wave. it might be kinda awkward. it'll be okay though we will see.
 
I'M RIDIN SOLO.
 
I'M NOT ONE LESS LONEY GIRL.
 
i'm not very good at these sets but i like them. i shall get bettterrr.

i get through each day with smiles, laughs, sometimes tears, but i get through it, & that's the goal. <3

hahahahahahahaha.
this is so freaking cute.
xD ♥ ♥ ♥ :))))
 
i'm gonna be obsessed with this picture now.
kay bye.

dear internet diary polyvore thing,
 
depresssionnnnnn.
like, i have so many reasons to be happy, & like no reasons to be sad....well maybe a few but not really anything too bad. yet there is still a part of me that hurts. *sigh* oh well. i'll be okay.
so like, it's easter break. & i'm really glad. i need a break from school. i don't fit in too well at my school. i mean, i have friends, but i don't really have a "group". i just have random friends in random groups. which is nice but i still would like to have a group of friends where we were allll best friends & hung out all the time. oh well...maybe in highschool. idk.
my boyfriend & i are trying to set up his friend & my friend haha. she thinks he's cute & next time he's on facebook i'm gonna ask him if he thinks shes cute! they would be a really cute couple so hopefully he'll like her too. double dates! <3
there's only like 22 days left of school! i'm so excited for summer...but i'm kinda scared. i'm scared a lot is going to change & because of it i won't have a good summer. well we will see what happens.

yeah so sorry if this is weird cuz it kinda is but i'm boreddd & wanted to share with you these quotes that i think descibe my love life/relationship wiff my boyfriend.
 

"you are the one, the one that lies close to me. whispers, hello i've missed you quite terribly. i fell in love, in love with you suddenly. now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms"
 
"i'm goin in for the kill, i'm doin it for a thrill, oh i'm hoping you'll understand, & not let go of my hand."
 
"she may be confused about a lot of things , but one thing she knows for sure- the only time she is 1OO% happy is when she's with him."
 
"i'm sorry, sometimes i just get jealous thinking that someone else could make you happier than i could."
 
"you never leave my mind, even when i have a million things to worry about."
 
"1 universe, 9 planets, 204 countries, 809 islands, 7 seas, & i had the priviage to meet you."
 

"i must have done something right to deserve you in my life . i must have done something right along the way."
 
"do you remember, we were sittin there by the water, you put your arm around me for the first time."
 
TO BE CONTINUED....?

8 fears :/
 
1. that all of my friends & family will die & i'll be alone.
2. never finding that special someone.
3. having a bad highschool expirience
4.getting seriously injured and not being able to skate anymore.
5.finding out that my boyfriend has been cheating on me,lying to me,something like that.
6.my skating team shutting down.
7.getting addicted to drugs
8.big spiders.
9.becoming even more depressed than i am.
10. not living life

9 loves <3
 
1. my friends (this includes my skating team & my boyfriend)
2. figure skating
3. chocolate
4. music
5. shopping
6. black cherry smooties
7. beaches
8. looking pretty
9. christmas time
10. when you relize that you really made the right decision, when you were scared to make it cause you thought it would be the wrong one.